Hello again all.
I wanted to come back and catch up with you while the kids are asleep and i have some free time.
Today
is March 20, 2012. I have been on this journey for almost 2 months now.
Since the beginning i have dropped a pant size, and lost a grand total
of 17 pounds. I cant tell you how ecstatic i am to say that i have
accomplished that in two months. Though as i sit here typing this i have
to remember that through this blog i want to fill it with honesty. I
want to be completely honest with how i have been doing and what
challenges i've met so when some of you read this, you know you are not
alone.
Like i have said in a previous post this
has been one of the hardest things i have ever had to do. I have never
been so aware of how addicted i am to food before in my life! This is a
daily battle for me. There's not a minute that goes by that i don't
think about food. I know to some people that may sound ridiculous but
that's my reality. Just like someone who smokes (another battle i need
to begin) or drinks, over time you relate food to different activities,
to your emotions, to boredom. Disconnecting food from all of those
things takes time and tons of effort. You have to remind yourself
constantly and its definitely something that doesn't happen overnight. I
feel this is a big reason why people such as myself have given up in
the past. This is hard!
Again with honesty,
for the past week i have not watched my food like i should and i haven't
been to the gym a single day. I'm not going to list out the excuses but
they started with my period and ended with the flu. I want to be the
first one to tell anyone who has met these types of roadblocks before,
just because you mess up or fall off the bandwagon doesn't mean you cant
hop right back on! Don't let this ruin all you have worked for! Use it
as a learning experience. Try to figure out what things trigger you to
fall off so you can be better prepared for them next time. One example
for me is my period. I felt like crap therefore all i wanted to do was
curl up on the couch and eat junk. I didn't want to move nor did i care.
Next time when i know its coming i will just have to work harder to
take the precautions i need to, to not see a repeat.
Tonight
its back to the gym, and weighing in today at 204, i am so close to
being under 200 i can taste it. I would like to reach that goal before
we head to NC on April 11th. I need to get back in the groove so that
when we do come home to visit i can stay strong and continue to keep it
up while we are there.
I want to sum this post up with just saying that when you meet a roadblock, don't give up
Its hard for everyone and you are not alone! Just remember how much
progress you've made and be proud of yourself! What may seem like a
mountain, is more than likely just a grain of sand!
